Life depends on Memories

There are some parts in life which we want to end. To finally vanish from our thoughts, from our hearts, even when we know, that this is impossible. 
Life depends on memories.
Without them we couldn't move on and going to be a better human as we were before. It's clearly like water freezing at 0° degrees. Though it was for me a few days ago. I searched for Redemption from Gackt and found the beautiful piece 'Kimi ni ai takute' it was matching for a Character which I'm writing with a friend of mine. I listened to it over and over again...
And there, suddenly, she came in my mind.
My gone lover, my lost love.
I thought I was done with her somehow. That the feelings are quite treasured deep within my soul... but it wasn't true. This song reminded me on the good things that happened with her. The great time I was spending around her. And the bad things I did to loose her...
I was nearly to cry and still smiling wryly. I was feeling desperate, quite hopeless... but not at all sad. It's difficult to describe. It was a feeling of melancholic and still it was staying miles apart. I could watch my feelings from a distance somehow. I could see my memories from a distance where they couldn't touch me.

You are strong when you realize that memories aren't bad... they are helpful for living. Always existing with the time being.
Accept things that happened, try to finish it for yourself somehow. Take whatever time you need for it. 
When the memories come back you'll see more than you saw before...

Thanks to Keishiro that I finally understood what my heart was trying to tell me.
Thank you my dear.

I'm in love with you, whatever will come.
Our souls became one.
My heart belongs to you.

Smile at me